Imaginärer Feind / Imaginary Enemy

Lyrics by Silvia Alveole / Translation by Silvia Alveole

It’s all been too much for me in days now
My mind is spinning in circles
But I can’t seem to find a solution
(It’s spinning!)

I’m feeling down but right afterwards I fly high
My head screams „go to the left“ by my heart says: „Go straight ahead!“

I’m not patient, I’m always waiting for things to turn
But there is no help
against my endless anxiety

Imaginary enemy, I can see you.
I go through fire just to understand you
You have fulfilled all my wishes
I can’t tell you what I am still missing
Imaginary enemy, I can see you

Right in front of me is happiness,
But instead I just see a black hole
(It’s calling me!)

While looking down I walk straight ahead

My anxiety screams „stop right here“
But my heart says: „Don’t listen and keep going“

I feel completely cold
But those who are said to be dead live long

I never want to go back to where it all began

But every day headlines hit me hard.
With full force right into my heart

I ask questions, but no one listens to me
Everyday my world is torn apart

Imaginary enemy, I can see you.
I go through fire just to understand you
You have fulfilled all my wishes.
I can’t tell you what I am still missing
Imaginary enemy, I can see you

Outro-Part:
One day it’s gonna be just you and me
Then I can finally tell you why I’m crying

Imaginary enemy – you are my best friend
Because without you I would have missed everything

I wouldn’t even know what hate really means

The anger I feel as soon as you’re gone
I wouldn’t know how much it burns
when someone is doing me wrong
And how much energy I can draw from all the anger.
All the Anger
All the Anger

The Story behind:

In the song „Imaginary Enemy“ I talk about two aspects.

Personal aspect:
Traumatized by events of my past I used to see enemies in almost all people I met. I was afraid of everybody, thinking all of them wanna do me bad.
I isolated myself more and more, hoping to become invisible to everybody, so that noone could hurt me.
I do remember the moment when I realized that most of these enemies I see are not existing. Those enemies in my head are still the ones of my past and I am projecting them on all new people who wanna have access to my life. Out of the real enemies I created numerous imaginary enemies.
Currently I am trying is to ignore these voices in my head and give new people a chance to come closer to me. That’s one of the most difficult tasks of my life.

Political aspect
A lot of toxic ideologies and destructive political opinions are manipulating us to see enemies in others. We are falsely told people from other cultures or countries are responsible for bad things happening in our lifes just to find someone to blame for our misery. It is always easier to think somebody else is responsible for our problems, instead of taking the responsibility to ourselves and go the hard way and work out a solution.

There are no enemies, there are no borders. They exist only in our head. Imaginary enemies.